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It's been a few weeks since my last Sunday sermon (haha) so I'm back with a Saturday think session. I am calling this week's post Resolve for two reasons. First, I am resolving to try to stop overanalyzing and pushing so hard to always have everything be perfect at all times. Second, when things aren't perfect, I try so hard to solve them because I don't like things to be unresolved. Life is messy - it's hard work - and sometimes you just have to let things "be" instead of trying to solve them. I need to work on this! I often feel the need to overanalyze situations and then explain things in 15 different ways because I'm such an emotional thinker and I want to "right" situations immediately. I hate discord, but sometimes I think you just need to let things stand. Muddy water, let stand, becomes clear, they say.
I also am a firm believer in energies. There is a field for every feeling surrounding each person. I try to think positive thoughts and put positive and loving energy out into the world but life happens and sometimes you react in a way you shouldn't, or have a negative response to someone because their response seemed negative. However, if you react with a negative feeling, you will receive negative feelings back. Negative feelings multiply, so replace those feelings with love and you will receive love back in multitudes. "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he." Proverbs 23:7.
I have been struggling a lot lately with staying positive, as I've had a lot going on in my life that I'm not used to. So I've been flailing about on the inside struggling with my feelings of anxiety over things I try to control but can't. Because of this I've been trying too hard to gain control of my life. So this morning I sat down and meditated on this, and it's come to me that the answers are sometimes simple, but hard to follow. Sometimes you need to just let go and have faith that wrongs will be righted if you just put forth love into the world, and accept that everything takes its own course. As your faith is strengthened, you will find there is no longer a need to have control, but that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them. Life isn't meant to be a struggle, but we make it that way by trying to take control when we should be letting go and letting God take the reigns sometimes. This is the hardest thing for me to do, because I always want to fix everything or make it how I want it. But what usually happens is the opposite of what we want - we get in our own way. I'm learning through self awareness. I'm not perfect, and never will be, but I'm trying to just let myself be and have confidence that I'm on the right path and that I need to just relax and enjoy the ride a little more!!!!
I recently read the book "The Art of Racing in the Rain" which I referred to in my last post a few weeks ago (I recommend the book, and the author's name is in my last post if you want to check it out). I can take something from that book - that sometimes you have to just figure out that instead of trying to control the car/life, you need to ease off and just let the wheel/life correct itself. Let go of the past and mistakes you've made and just go forward with love and life will present love to you.
In love,
j'aime (which actually means 'love' :)
